Time in the desert

So what’s next? 

After Kenya and a God given passion for Africa and children in poverty.

I had a prophecy moment I guess you could say, I just had this sense in me that I would be working in childcare for 2 years then I would get ready to go again, seeing as I was just about the complete my diploma of children’s service it made sense, as much as I really wanted to be back in Africa.

And sure enough I got offered a position at a local childcare centre and for there for 2 years and these were some very interesting years. After having such an intense experience of God in Africa, back in Australia he all of a sudden because very quiet, or I got more distracted. And I discovered that working with children can be very challenging as well as rewarding. I had a pretty stressful time, learning real patience. And dealing with high amounts of stress, I would constantly have break downs and would constantly wonder why God had me here for such a time as this. Later I discovered it was to shape and build my character. To trust in God and turn to him even when he felt light years away and to learn what it really meant to be like Jesus to try to react to situations like Jesus would, to love these children as Jesus did, even when some days it was really, really hard.  

As this was happening Africa was always at the back of my mind, so there was a lot of praying and waiting on God for the right time. And I had so many opportunities to meet people that were involve in mission in Africa and heard from so many people and God really was just stirring me on, but none of them felt right, but I did develop quite a group of contacts in Africa.

This time of waiting on God was tough especially after having such an intense experience of his everyday presence. But a Brooke Fraser song really spoke to my situation and became my anthem to God
 The lyrics go like this;

 "Faithful"

There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
i wave my arms' round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here
But the comfort of you near is what i long for

[CHORUS]
When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear everyword I pray
And i want you more than i want to live another day
And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful

All the folly of the past, though I know it is undone
i still feel the guilty one, still trying to make it right
So i whisper soft your name, let it roll around my tounge,
knowing you're the only one who knows me
You know me

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE]
Show me how I should live this
Show me where I should walk
I count this world as loss to me
You are all I want
You are all I want